Sittin' on the porch with Brenda

I'm about to write a sentence that I never in my life thought I would ever ever write....I just got off the phone with my dog psychic.

So there it is, I've laid it out for you. That's where I officially have landed in my life. Dog psychics. 

Things go a little sideways and you find yourself on the phone with a housewife in Florida who specializes in canine communication. It's an easy leap when you're falling apart. 

My favorite thing about her is that she doesn't put on a big show. She doesn't deepen her voice or mumble around, she just chats in a real "we're just two gals having some cheap Zin on the porch" kind of way. Real sing songy. And that's what makes me buy what she's selling. 

Here's the truth, when someone says psychic, someone else says, lame. But Brenda (that's her name, don't wear it out) has made me feel better about things. She really has. She's listened to me and let me cry and ask weird questions and she's never laughed. Not even once. Plus, she seems to know things about my dog that I thought only I knew. 

And in the end, and most importantly, she gave me peace. She gave me peace at a time when I needed it most.

And for that I thank her and I always will. Brenda, my Floridian dog psychic, she's the real deal.

Lucky Me

I have some pretty magnificent friends.

(We may buy discount, but we're first class all the way!)

Just like that...

These days I don't want to make a move. I don't want to take a breath or pick up the phone or answer the door.  I keep thinking that if I stay perfectly still, make myself small enough, maybe nothing will happen. If I ignore the world, it will leave me alone for a while.

I've never been a fan of thinking about what may go wrong or worrying about things ending badly, but sometimes I'm forced to. Doesn't make it any easier. 

So instead of a family of three, we remain a family of two.

And instead of two dogs, we now have one. 

And instead of our sweet dog having four legs, he now has three and a timeline.

Everyone's been through this, when it seems like it just won't stop. And the thing I try to do is just hold on and remind myself that sometime soon I'll be at a party, or a movie, or at a dinner with friends and I'll find myself laughing. 

Just like that.