These days I don't want to make a move. I don't want to take a breath or pick up the phone or answer the door. I keep thinking that if I stay perfectly still, make myself small enough, maybe nothing will happen. If I ignore the world, it will leave me alone for a while.
I've never been a fan of thinking about what may go wrong or worrying about things ending badly, but sometimes I'm forced to. Doesn't make it any easier.
So instead of a family of three, we remain a family of two.
And instead of two dogs, we now have one.
And instead of our sweet dog having four legs, he now has three and a timeline.
Everyone's been through this, when it seems like it just won't stop. And the thing I try to do is just hold on and remind myself that sometime soon I'll be at a party, or a movie, or at a dinner with friends and I'll find myself laughing.
Just like that.
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