Saturday Afternoon Thoughts

I'm thinking that my life is too small.

Seeing as how I'm in my early thirties, (plus way more years) I need to make more of a splash.  Right now my life feels like a series of to-do lists. 

How, though? How do I stir things up, make my life more of a sensation? Outside of cat burglary or something hero-ish, I think it may be a slow build. 

You see, I woke up this morning already late for my errands. Plus, I had a webinar I'd signed up for. Which, I should point out, is taking place as I write this. I've got the guy leading the webinar on speaker  phone and he is droning on and on about some lame ass thing that two weeks ago I thought would get me out of this rut. Placed the wrong bet there.  He's one of those people that tries to illustrate their emotions by using their voice. "I'm smiling with my voice." "Ugh, now I'm showing frustration!" Also, I don't believe a word he says. He's telling stories meant to inspire and it's making me seethe. My teeth are on edge. I should really hang up the phone, but there's this hopeful part of me that keeps half-listening for the game changer. The thing he's gonna say with his grating voice that will turn my life around. 

And let's face it, he's out there doing his thing. He may be lying and emphasizing words in an astonishingly irritating way, but he's doing a webinar that I signed up for. So, kudos to you, fuck face. And I say that with no inflection at all. 

Okay, I should start. Finish up here and get started. Get things moving. Get some thrills. I'm not known for my patience, but I am known as appallingly stubborn and I think that may come in handy. 

Or...I could curl up with a good book. And by good book I mean watch the House Hunters marathon. I'll let you know as things develop.